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Working out helps your intellect. You wouldn't think it, but it does. Sometimes I've been tortured over not understanding something, or many things, for days and weeks! Then, I've gone running, and all of a sudden, everything makes sense for a moment! Then I get stupid and try to start figuring everything out again and it doesn't work - again - and I get so pissed off! Its a vicious cycle.

But I know better now. Now, I'll just relax and "rejoice in my portion" rather than "being confused". I hate being confined and known, but I just am - God is the infinite, but I am just a man, and I'm okay with that - spiritually, physically, etc.

I am not going to get stupid or anything, but you notice the women working out and its a spiritual exercise to put the devil under your feet, too. It's great. You think, "The LORD is watching and He says that that leads to death, so devil get under my feet", and the devil has to flee. It's really good. Sometimes I get the feeling that God wants me to have a wife, but I am smarter than that now, too. I'm not going to wait for God to "lead" me to do anything ever again. I am just going to do whatever I want and do it the best I know how to the best of my ability - that's it.

Maybe the reason for all my failures in God was because of pride and trying to be a bigshot, like going to the gym, trying to lift a ton of weight, and never getting anywhere, because you can't lift that, and then you stay skinny and unmuscular (hmm... how would I know anything about that?)

Jesus, I am so found-out.

Sometimes thinking isn't good. It's where I used to meet with the Lord, but that relationship is over. Maybe God will find a new way to communicate with me, because He loves me, but my mind is too emotional, I think. I always think, "The hour is late, the Lord is returning soon, and I am not ready or close enough to Him." I love Jesus, but I don't know how to love Him. I feel like a fool, like an idiot for even trying. So now I will just go about my daily business, working on my daily regular necessities regardless of whether I feel Him near or whatever. He will do whatever He wants, and so will I. That's the only thing I can figure can work - and I didn't even have to "figure" it. Whatever.

The only danger is the blow to my ego in case it actually works - oh, watch out, Daniel, you're going to die the death prescribed by God, you just might succeed!
The blow to his ego? Yes, the blow to my ego - why, I'll tell you : because if I am not "worshipping God or doing something to EARN God's presence, then it's FREE, and that is like... what... this good thing... free? ... No... it can't be... I know I have to do something... "

Whatever, I'll tell you if it works. No laws here, just pure spirit.

Peace!

Fresh Bread

There are so many lies and half-truths out there concerning God - many outside and many inside the called-out ones, I have to voice the truth about the coming events on Earth. That is why I am making this website.